“A part of me wants to, and a part of me doesn’t, and then another part is annoyed with the whole thing”…Which part are you?… you are the neutral, aware one doing the seeing of the parts.

Investigate your inner workings. Be curious. Practice identifying the parts of you present, different at different times. They’re a bit like sub-personalities. We all have several aspects to ourself. It’s in the structure of the human psyche.
The more we practice identifying which parts of us are arising or conflicted in different moments, the more we begin to gain space from them. We can learn to form a more accepting, kind relationship with our parts and gradually alongside this we naturally sit back more and more in knowing ourselves as the awareness holding them all.