Author: ratnadyer

Let your awareness be not only of the things you are looking at, but also in yourself as the one perceiving.

We seemingly ‘lose ourselves’ in things. We can’t ever actually truely lose ourself. If we were not there, there would be nothing to have had any experience.

Self realisation is about learning to be aware of your awareness. Realising your own presence and awareness as the context in which all experience happens.

External objects come and go and change and flow. You as the perceiving awareness is the only constant.

This is the ‘seat’ of the Self. The ‘heart’, the Divine, the God self.

There is only one awareness. The awareness in you is the awareness in me. Here is unison and the oneness of life, of consciousness.

It’s right here all the time.

We look everywhere for love and happiness and overlook it as our very nature.

When we turn attention to the source of our looking itself, we find what we are looking for.

I remember my tutor Peter Hubbard at a lesson for my Psychosynthesis Counselling diploma once saying, ‘The work is not about going from A ➡️ to B. (Gesturing with his hands in a horizontal linear momenent) It’s about going from
A
⬇️
to
A
(Gesturing with his hands in a downward movement).

We all need to explore our inner being.

Do you hear your mind say ‘Yeah but not in my case they’re not’?

If so, there is an example of the inferior ego showing up.

What makes you so special to be different from all the rest of existence?…
Even if it is special in an inferior direction.

Often with the word ego, there is an idea of the sense of self importance being inflated. However ego can be super sneaky and takes many forms. An inferior ego does inflate a sense of identity, but through identifying with the ‘inadequate’ direction.

Superior or less than, are two of our ego’s favourite positions. They are two ends of the same stick.

Ego is about protection and separation. It’s task is to tenaciously maintain your sense of individual control and separation. It is like the protective wall of glass keeping a glass of sea water safe from becoming the ocean.

If you recognise you identify more with the inferior direction, your learning in releasing ego will include to affirm yourself. To find more balance within becoming comfortable and confident in knowing ‘Yes I do deserve to be happy and receive love. I am worthy and equal and whole.

There is nothing more joyous than feeling the spaciousness of the universe flow through you. Feeling yourself in the open unending sky. Allowing the birds to fly through your awareness like darts of grace and sparks of life.

We don’t need to fill ourselves up. We don’t need to fill the void. We need to see our heart ever present, not lost within it.

Here we are home; empty of our personal ideas, seeing we are already full with the joy of life itself.

It might feel different for a while, but fundamentally nothing has changed at all.

Usually there’s a part of us that wants change and a part that holds on for dear life to how things are, even if they’re sucky.

The part that’s holding on would rather be queen/king of the struggle she/he already knows, than risk the realms of the unknown.

When we start to see this part playing out in us and the tactics it employs to make us believe in him/her, then we are beginning to turn a key into an expansion of consciousness.

This is where true change occurs.

It is the air you breathe. It is the awareness with which you experience everything. It is the life force running through all the cells in your body. It is the light and dark and everything in between.

Come alive!! Wake up to this vital moment, living and breathing and sensing and knowing. We are this. We are truth. We are divinity in form.

‘What we are looking for is what is looking’ – Francis of Assisi.

Bring your attention to the resistance and what it is afraid of, and there is where you can start to let go.

We fight with how we feel so often. When we let ourselves go and let the feelings come, it can be such a release.

Sometimes we might need to rage or cry for hours. Sometimes days or weeks, months even. But no matter how big our pain is, when we honestly allow ourselves to fully have it, it will come to an end.

Nothing lasts forever, even our deepest grief. However it will not budge or fully go away if we keep holding it out at arms length.

At some point on our adult journey we will reach a point of choice, where we can step more consciously onto our path of healing.

Here we usually need guidance and support. Here we can start to learn to be more heartful and accepting with ourself.

We can open to cry our heart out honestly, not as a victim but as a sharing of truth, and with this peace can start to come in.

The fight to not feel the bad stuff can come to rest.

Relationships can be super challenging at times. And we can learn so much about ourselves.

It’s when we can really support each others growth in an honest and loving way that we can grow the most.

Unconditional love is not simply something you might have or not have. It is the essence of who we actually ARE as part of the universe. It is the DNA of our soul.

Even when we don’t feel we have unconditional love, it has us. It holds us. Our life unfolds unbrokenly within it.